One Day at a Time

Life is spinning so fast right now. Here are a few of the basics:

-I was in my first car accident last week (it was not my fault!!), so I am driving a rental and dealing with insurance companies and body shops trying to get my car fixed
-Classes are moving at a fast pace to get us caught up from missing so much class during the storm
-I am still working at the mall but am starting to look into other places of employment

Those things have been taking up most of my day-to-day time.

I am so confused right now. Oh yeah, and overwhelmed. There is so much happening in the next several months. I am desperate for May but at the same time, dreading it. I have a feeling it is going to be the worst...there is so much going on with graduation and end of the year things not to mention the fact that I need to have some answers and decisions made by then. So how am I dealing with these things? Avoidance. I get through what I have to in order to survive each day and wait. I read my Bible, talk to others, pray...the only thing I keep hearing is WAIT UPON ME. FIND YOUR STRENGTH IN ME. I HAVE IT FIGURED OUT. Some days, like today, I wish He would fill me in a little more than just wait. While I am sitting here, waiting on the Lord, I feel like I am being left out of so much. Like I am waiting at the starting line and everyone else is allowed to go except me. I stand there, so ready, yet unable to move. I need a direction and the go ahead.

So the wait continues...